Tag: poem

I’m Keeping You at Arm’s Length

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I’m keeping you at arm’s length
Because it’s the right thing to do,
Because I believe it’s not yet the appointed time.
I’m not even sure if I’m making the right judgment.
I’m keeping you at arm’s length
Because I don’t want things to get messy.
Closer means risky and risk unguarded can lead to disaster.
I’m keeping you at arm’s length
Because I’m busy,
I’m busy trying to get my life together
And keep it from falling apart.
I’m keeping you at arm’s length
Because I’m not bold enough
And I don’t want to get vulnerable.
I’m afraid that by holding you close,
I might end up pushing you away.
I’m keeping you at arm’s length
Because that’s the only way I can keep you.

Dear Lord

Today, I will not complain
I will not cry out to you
And tell you how discouraged,
Frustrated and disappointed I am.

I will not tell you how much
I really want you to get me out
of this place
Nor I will ask You to take away
this cup from me

I will not tell you how sorry
I am for disobeying You
because honestly, I’m not.
I’m busy wallowing in self-pity
to think about of the graveness
Of my own sin by simply disobeying you,
That by not doing the good things
I ought to do , I have already sinned against You.
But by not being sorry about it, I also admit that I am bothered
I am bothered that
I don’t feel sorry at all.

Yes, I will not tell you about all
these things
Because I know You already
know it
And even if I say it, I know that You will not let me get out of this place without learning a lesson (or two)
Because even if I don’t like it,
You know that I need it.
So yes, I’ll rest my case.

I will not also ask for strength
because I know that my strength
Will fail sooner or later.

But today I will ask You,
That as I go through this realm of the unkown
Please hold me tight
Don’t let me go
Don’t let me slip away
Because I know that if You do,
I have nowhere else to go.

In Jesus’ name, amen.
Your daughter,
Cary