This question is quite related to my previous post in my letter to my past, present, and future self. My previous letter was addressed to my 15-year-old self. I was in the 4th year of high school back then. So, for this challenge, let me go back a year earlier to have a conversation with my 14-year-old self in my 3rd year in high school. I actually don’t know what to say to my younger self because I can’t remember anymore what my issues were back then. So let me try again…
“Hey, Cary! I saw that. I know what, or perhaps who, you are looking at from this window.”
“Who are you?!”
“It doesn’t matter, but I know you’re staring at that guy with the blue shoes. Maybe you’re also secretly praying that you’ll share the same ride on your way back home, later.”
“How did you know that?”
“Well, been there, done that. I’m sorry to tell you, but what you’re hoping for is never going to happen, and that’s okay.”
“What about our prom next year? Isn’t he going to ask me to dance?”
“Duh, as if you care about dancing.”
“Yeah, you’re right. I don’t.”
“But don’t worry, you’ll not end up in the all-girls section next year. Your cool adviser will find a partner for you. Anyway, that’s not the reason why I came all the way back to this distant past and brought some news about your prom. I came here to tell you a very important message, and I hope you will listen carefully.
I know you’re now starting to get anxious and feel that you don’t seem to fit in. Maybe you also feel weird that you don’t have that someone you can call a best friend. It’s okay. You’ll get by with a little help from your close friends. You are a strong girl, so you won’t need a constant somebody to lean on, especially in this current chapter of your life. Just cherish the happy moments with your high school friends because that will be the only thing that will hold you together later in life. Don’t also feel bad that no one is romantically pursuing you right now. You will thank God later for that because it will spare you from a lot of heartaches.”
“Who says that I want to be in a relationship right now?! My priority is my studies. I’m too young for that!”
“I know. But believe me, later you’ll feel envious of your classmates who have secret admirers, and you will feel insecure and unloved. So you have to keep this in mind: you are beautiful, and you are loved. So stay bubbly and carefree as you are.”
“Thanks, I think I need that. Though I still don’t understand what you are saying.”
“Later you will understand. Sorry, I have to go. You will hear again from me soon.”
No Ordinary Day 