Month: July 2015

 

“So, please wait for me. For your sake and my own, wait. Wait because God is telling you to wait. Wait because you have more growing to do. Wait because I have more growing to do. And wait because it will be worth it. Because at the end of the day, the reason I’m not pursuing you yet is because I’m just not ready. And the reason you’re not being pursued by me yet is that you’re just not ready. So join with me in individually submitting to God…Even if that means that there actually isn’t a Mr. or Mrs. Right waiting for us… Can we be ok with that? Can we trust God and be okay with whatever the outcome, knowing that we have already received all we need in His Son? That’s a hard question, but until you’re in a place where you’re okay with never getting married, you won’t be in a place where I will be able to pursue you.”

An open letter from Mr. Right.

Since I admit that my previous post is quite heavy to read, I’ll post something light and funny. I’m trying do some spring cleaning of my room today and I came across with my college journal. I tried to read some pages and I can’t help laughing at myself with the way I tried to write my thoughts in english, haha! I’m glad I was able to chronicle some of my best college moments and I’m no longer ashamed to share it with the world now. ;D

According to my journal, 2nd Sem of my second year in college was my best sem ever because:

• I got my higest grade ever (1.25 in SocSci 2). I got a grade of flat 1 the year after, though. (See how grade-conscious I am back in college, haha!)
• I had the coolest professors. We’re still friends in fb even today. 😀
• I had track and field for P.E. and I met my ultimate college crush there. I even remember calling him ‘soulmate’ (don’t worry, he’s married now). 😀

If Love is all you need and God is Love, then God is all you need.

I always feel frustrated whenever I hear my friends complain about their being single and alone. Actually, I’m starting to get tired of listening to their rants or even watching them chase love in wrong places and wrong person, even if I always remind them that if you really want to find love, you need to seek God first.

Well, I can’t blame them because who am I to teach them about love anyway when I haven’t been in a romantic relationship? I even heard one of them say that NBSB women are idealistic people because they haven’t experience being brokenhearted, and honestly, it’s kind of hurtful to hear them say that.

But then again, when I think about it, that’s exactly the reason why I never dared to enter in a romantic relationship just for the sake of experience. I’ve seen so many hearts being broken because people let their romantic feelings lead their actions. And most of the time, what most people thought as ‘love’ are  mere romantic feelings. Since feelings come and go, romantic feelings can also come and go and that is where problem in romantic relationships comes in. Love is a commitment so unless two people are committed to work on their relationship, their romantic relationship wouldn’t stand the test of time. Because we humans are really made for relationships, the human tendency is to continue to search and to seek for love until their deepest longing for love and relationship are met.  But as what St. Augustine has once said, ‘The human heart is restless until it finds itself in God.’

So unless a person will decide to seek God instead of seeking love in wrong places and person, his/her quest for love will be in vain. And once he/she realized that it’s all vanity to search for love, he/she will become become bitter and resentful.

Yes, I’m generalizing this way because I believe this is a universal truth and pattern. But going back to my main point, to end this vain pursuit of human love, one must start looking for love with the right person – Jesus. Nothing more, nothing less.

I don’t know if I’ve mentioned it enough before  that I’m a Relient K fan. Yes, I love Relient K and their songs so I never fail play my Relient K playlist whenever I listen to music. For some reason, the song Let It All Out has been playing in my playlist for several weeks now and the song always gets me at the chorus:

And you said I know that this will hurt But if I don’t break your heart then things will just get worse If the burden seems too much to bear Remember The end will justify the pain it took to get us there

The song has never been my favorite among the RK songs. It’s maybe because of its gloomy and sad melody. Since I don’t really like the song that much, I don’t intentionally listen to it and take note of the lyrics. Not until recently

Because the chorus has finally got my attention, I decided to listen to the entire song and take note of its message and lyrics. It was only after I listenend to the song completely that I found out that this RK song is the anthem of my life at the moment. I believe I’m at the point where God is really putting me in a purifying process to remove all impurities and sin in my life. And I tell you, it is a really painful process. But I don’t resent it because I know I’ve asked for it. I asked God to mold me and make me so that He can use me for the advancement of His kingdom.