Month: August 2014

Maybe I’m beginning to like you a lot,

but I will never pursue you.

Around me, I’m tempted by all these pawns

calling me to use them,

looking me in the eye, saying

maybe you and I can ”accidentally” bump into each other in a coffee shop;

maybe we can schedule “friendly dates” with a bunch of conniving friends;

maybe I can start “innocent” topics with you over that gleaming chat box,

ask you things that no one would brand as bad,

I can even send you “wrong sends.”

But even this early, I realized

that albeit pawns are the most numerous pieces in a game,

at the end of the day,

they are but

the weakest.

 
























Don’t get me wrong -

I want to be with you.

Just to get to know you more,

I am ready to manipulate

so many things -

things…

Sometimes I think a full schedule of things to do is one of the enemy’s sneakiest tricks into living an unfulfilled life.

Our planners full of meetings to attendant, people to meet, and events to participate in may make us feel like we are doing something worthwhile and important but often times those things that are supposed to be so good are the very things that get us further away from Christ.

We become like Martha, hustling and bustling away in the kitchen, preparing amazing things for our Savior, and yet ignoring Him the whole time.

Lately I have been feeling a lot more like Martha than like Mary.

I don’t remember the last day I’ve had just to Jesus and myself.

I feel like I’m running a marathon race and I can’t stop until I cross the finish line.

Unless I make a conscious effort to take a break…