Day 18. If you could have a conversation with yourself in high school, what would you say?

This question is quite related to my previous post in my letter to my past, present and future self. My previous letter was addressed to my 15-year old self. I was in 4th year high school back then. So for this challenge, let me go back a year earlier to have a conversation with my 14-year old self in my 3rd year in high school. I actually don’t know what to say to my younger self because I can’t remember anymore what my issues are back then. So let me try again…

“Hey, Cary! I saw that. I know what, or perhaps who, are you looking at from this window.”

“Who are you?!”

“It doesn’t matter but I know you’re staring at that guy with the blue shoes. Maybe you’re also secretly praying that you’ll share the same ride on your way back home, later.”

“How did you know that?”

“Well, been there, done that. I’m sorry to tell you but what you’re hoping for will never gonna happen, and that’s okay.”

“What about our prom next year? Isn’t he going to ask me to dance?”

“Duh, as if you care about  dancing.”

“Yeah, you’re right. I don’t.”

“But don’t worry, you’ll not end up in the all-girls section next year. Your cool adviser will find a partner for you. Anyway, that’s not the reason why I came all the way back to this distant past and bring some news about your prom. I came here to tell you a very important message and I hope you will listen carefully.

I know you’re now starting to get anxious and feel that you don’t seem to fit in. Maybe you also feel weird that you don’t have that someone you can call a best friend. It’s okay. You’ll get by with a little help from your close friends. You are a strong girl so you won’t need a constant somebody to lean on especially in this current chapter of your life. Just cherish the happy moments with your high school friends because that will be the only thing that will hold you together, later in life. Don’t also feel bad that no one is romantically  pursuing you right now. You will thank God later for that because it will spare you from a lot of heartaches.”

“Who says that I want to be in a relationship right now?! My priority is my studies. I’m too young for that!”

“I know. But believe me, later you’ll feel envious of your classmates who have secret admirers and you will feel insecure and unloved. So you have to keep this in mind: you are beautiful and you are loved. So stay bubbly and carefree as you are.”

“Thanks, I think I need that. Though I still don’t understand what you are saying.”

“Later you will understand. Sorry, I have to go. You will hear again from me, soon.”

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